Friday, February 14, 2014
I used to be the girl who never receives anything on valentines day. That's right, I receive nothing. It used to be that Valentine's day is the most dreadful day of the year when I just want to be like a bubble that vanishes from the world in an instant. It's demotivating when you're in high school and surrounded with pretty girl friends, there's nothing left for you but to be left out.
Looking at my life now, I can see the massive difference between the girl I am today and the girl I was seven or eight years ago. I'm not the young girl who used to be afraid of Valentine's Day anymore. Today, I have someone who loves me unconditionally; someone who is not afraid to show the world his genuine love and tenderness. Who would have thought?
Maybe life really is a series of choices. I could have continued to be sour and missed out on love but I didn't. I jumped and fall into love and it was all worth it.
Happy Valentine's Day 2014
Thursday, October 17, 2013
Ive never felt so anxious working on the 7th-floor until the earthquake. It's been two days and I've decided its time to go back to work. While working, I felt two strong aftershocks that shook the floor and the computers and mind you it was nerve-wracking. By God's grace, I survived the shift and even got an unexpected lunch date invitation by my brother Carl. We finally got to spend quality time and just enjoy the food in each other's company. I love how God saved us from the fury of the earthquake and how I got to enjoy this delicious brownie ala mode that melts in my mouth, life goes on. #blessed
Sunday, August 25, 2013
Just writing to let you know that you have given me the best eight months of my life. I've never felt so blessed in my whole life until I realized the depth of our love for each other. You are the man of my dreams and the man I've been waiting for all my life. Please know that I can feel your love everyday even at the most random routine of life. Although we are miles apart right now, you still never fail to put a smile on my face and joy in my heart. I am very blessed knowing I wake up each day knowing you are mine now and forever. You brought total bliss in my life and I am very thankful of your love. Being with you everyday is total bliss that I am very thankful about. Thank you for loving me unconditionally and just so you know,You are my heaven on earth. Happy 8 monthsarry. Cheers to forever!
Friday, August 2, 2013
I’m pretty sure I wrote in my diary a year ago that I will never fall in love again if I wasn’t sure that he would be the man who would be worth the drama and would walk me down the aisle. It’s been years of falling in, breaking down, and all the mess that tags along with it. I was pretty confident I would never survive another break up. I was just a little girl scared of breaking my heart again, until Caleb John came into my life out of the ordinary one fine December morning. When I met him I realized how easy he managed to make me smile the whole day just after a single 40-minute conversation. We clicked in an instant and got along easily. Weeks passed and we couldn’t last a day without each other. There is great joy in each other’s company and we couldn’t be any happier. One day he confessed that he loves me; it was one of the happiest moments of my youth. From that day on I just knew that it was time to stop being scared and start claiming the love we both deserve. I fasted and prayed to God for guidance and strength to take a leap and fall in love again. Seven days from the day he told me he loves me; I answered “I love you” back. It was the best decision I ever made in my twenty three years of existence. I have never been so happy and content in love. Everyday I am learning to exercise patience, understanding, and being selfless. It's challenging at times but at the end of the day, love wins. It's been seven abounding months of love, joy, and comfort and baby the risk was worth it.
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Saturday, November 3, 2012
Saturday, October 27, 2012
Sunday, October 21, 2012
I woke up today realizing my endless insecurities in this life. I’m already drained out it’s not even 7 am just yet. Last night over coffee I blurted out a tiny part of my anxieties to my best friends Karen and Damien Jay. But now it hit me! The best that they can do to help are only to lend me their listening ears or to tell me what to do, or take me to a weekend get-away at the beach – and that’s it. The rest is all up to me. I've been burdened by these little devils of insecurities for months or even years now, it’s exhausting. I almost wanted to give up when I realized it’s a Sunday and that I still have a mighty God to turn to. Thus this little cat fight between me and my doubts is certainly not over – and yes, I will fight against them and I will definitely triumph.
Friday, October 5, 2012
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
It’s only mid-week and I already have a lot to babble about.
A couple of big bosses from work seemed to notice the sparkling wit in me, exactly how the previous boss and everybody else seemed to notice it from months back. I appreciate the overwhelming acknowledgement, but at the end of the day, when you truly know your strong work ethics, then no amount of recognition would really matter anyway. I guess sometimes, knowing the best part of you is enough of a security to get you through.
For weeks now, I’ve been gaping at the road less traveled by. I don’t know if it’s about time to pack my bags and head my way, but the circumstances are already pushing me to do so. Damien Jay seems to think it’s time. To be honest, I don’t know what I think. Where I’m at right now is the uneasy transition between laid-back childhood and real-world adulthood. It all seems like I trapped myself between the delight of relaxation and the challenge of responsibility. Do you realize the burden of how I’m feeling?
It’s hard to let go of something you have known all your life, it’s harder to venture into the unknown.
Perhaps life hasn't taught me that much yet to develop a special kind of maturity, to climb higher mountains and take harder challenges. I’m twenty two, and I know I’m not a child anymore, but sometimes the child within me screams otherwise. What does it take to be REALLY mature anyway? I wonder.
The last thing I want to do is to spend the next few weeks eyeing the other side of the road with a mix of passion and frustrations. Here I am, just looking from afar because I’m not among them just yet. Indeed it is a road less traveled by, and someday, I shall walk them through.